Bullys and help

So, my day was going just fine. I had woke up and was watching the cooking channel when I got a phone call from my mom. A friend of mine had shot herself. She was rushed to a hospital, where she now sits unresponsive but stable. My mom said she would call if she got more information. She called back a few hours later with the information that my old friend was being cyberbullyed. Why do you have to be so mean and bully someone behind a computer? or a phone? Not only is Illegal in some places, but its all sorts of wrong. You are hiding, making fun on someone behind something, and I find you a coward. You are playing with peoples emotions. You are pushing people to their breaking points and you can't even face those people and say the same shit you said behind that mother fucking keyboard. Cowards, you are nothing more than cowards.



Now to those going through all sorts of major problems,

You will be okay. I have no doubt in my mind that you can not make it through whatever shit you are going through. All those people will fucking talk, they will walk all over you, they will kick you down and drag you through mud, but you can never ever let it get to you. I want you to stay strong and survive. If you feel the need to do something horrible to yourself, please call someone that you know will help you. If you are having family troubles, tell someone. Do not hold it in, because that will never help. You need to talk to someone. I know when I feel like my world is coming apart at the seams, I always call my best friends and they help me figure things out. It always helps.

Remeber, you decide who is your family, not your blood.

With love,
Mr. M

P.S: I am adding all the help hotlines.

Alcohol

National Council on Alcoholism and Drug Dependence, Inc.
Helpline for finding treatment.
(800)-NCA-CALL or (800) 622-2255
[24 hours]

Al-Anon and AlaTeen
Help for people who have, or know someone who has, a drinking problem.
(800) 4AL-ANON or (800) 425-2666

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Domestic Violence

The National Domestic Violence Hotline
Crisis intervention, information, and referrals.
(800) 799-SAFE or (800) 799-7233
[24 hours; English & Spanish]

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Drugs

Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration
Information on prevention and treatment referrals.
(800) 662-HELP or (800) 662-4357

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Eating Disorders

National Eating Disorders Association
Information on eating disorders and referrals for treatment.
(800) 931-2237
[Monday – Thursday, 9 a.m. – 9 p.m.; Friday 9 a.m. – 5 p.m.]

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Gay/Lesbian Issues

GLBT National Help Center
Peer-counseling, information, and local resources.
(888)-THE-GLNH or (888) 843-4564
[Monday – Friday, 1 p.m. – 9 p.m.]

Parents, Families and Friends of Lesbians and Gays
Support, education, and advocacy with local chapters.

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Grief Support & Education

KARA
Compassionate support to those grieving or facing a life-threatening illness.
(650) 321-5272
[Monday – Thursday, 9 a.m. – 4 p.m.; Friday 9 a.m. – 1 p.m.]

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Obesity

National Center for Chronic Disease Prevention and Health Promotion
Health information and resources.

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Pregnancy

Planned Parenthood
Counseling and referrals.
(800) 230-PLAN or (800) 230-7526

American Pregnancy Hotline
Information on pregnancy and options for teens.
(866) 942-6466

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Rape & Sexual Assault

Rape Abuse & Incest National Network
Provides free services and help, as well as referrals.
National Sexual Assault Hotline
(800) 656-HOPE or (800) 656-4673
[24 hours]

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Runaway

California Coalition for Youth
Crisis intervention to work through problems and find a plan of action.
California Youth Crisis Line
(800) 843-5200
[24 hours]

National Runaway Safeline
Crisis intervention to work through problems and find a plan of action.
(800)-RUNAWAY or (800) 786-2929
[24 hours]

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Self-Injury

S.A.F.E. Alternatives
Not a crisis line. Information about programs and referrals.
(800)-DONT-CUT or (800) 366-8288

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Sexuality & Relationships

Online chat for information.
Planned Parenthood Info for Teens

Counseling and referrals.
(800) 230-PLAN or (800) 230-7526

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Sexually Transmitted Diseases

Sexually Transmitted Diseases (STDs)
Specialists provide health information about STDs.
(800)-CDC-INFO or (800) 232-4636
[English & Spanish]

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Smoking

California Smokers' Helpline
Free program to help people stop smoking.
(800)-NO-BUTTS or (800) 662-8887
[English & Spanish]

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Suicide

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
Calls to the National Suicide Hotline are connected to the nearest crisis center in your area.
(800)-273-TALK or (800) 273-8255
[24 hours]

The Journey so far.

So, I was all set to attending college for the spring semester. I got my dorm keys and my student I.D, and have already moved into the dorm itself. I signed up for my classes, and attended them on my first week there. At the end of the week I decided that I'd like to go home and see my parents, so i packed my bags and headed home. During my stay, I was emailed that I would have to pay out the remaining balance on my college that my financial aid did not pay, or enroll in a payment plan. I owed a big chunk of change, and it was going to cost 1600 just to enroll in a payment plan. which is half of the remaining balance. What kind of payment plan is that? Half up front and half later? I'm only 19 and not a rich person, you can't have a payment plan for people like me? Monthly payments?? Seriously?? Anyway, I went to the bank to see about credit or a loan, which neither was granted to me due to being only 19 and never having credit before. So I made the decision that will forever affect my life for a long while. I dropped out of my classes and packed up my dorm and left. I moved back in with my parents and started looking for a job until i could get back on my feet. So far I have not had any luck with the job, and I am sleeping on the couch until i can get a bed, or hopefully get a job to get an apartment. I have no idea where I will go from here. As I am writing this, I am staying with my uncle and his fiance for a little while, just a mini vacation.

To add to all the odd and kinda sucky things that are happening to me, one of my best friends may be moving to Prattville because he MAY have gotten a job at Wal Mart. So not only is one of my best friends already down in Millbrook, an hour trip from where I live, but the other one MAY be leaving me to live away from me. So BOTH of my best friends will not be near me. I know I will live, its not all that heart breaking but I like having one friend close, close enough that I can go pick him up and we can drive off somewhere and just hang out.

However, I can't focus on that right now. I need to find a job and get my life in order. I need to get back in school, some school, and get an education. That is what I need to do. But why do I feel like I am not being pulled in that direction? Why do I feel like that is not what I am meant to do, but something I am forcing myself to do? I know that I need the college education. These are things I know. That is what I am sticking with.


Until Next Time,
Mr. M